God's Love Over All

I'm not going to lie when I say that my entire life has entered confusion mode.  God enters specific people into your head to begin praying and do so without ceasing for long periods of time.  This has happened since the last school year and will continue to go on as long as I'm around.  I understand God has a reason for all of the things that enter through, but I'll never know what could come of these things, or what hardships I may face from it.  Something that could be so easily condemnable or so harshly viewed could be the one thing that is the most Christ-centered of all.  All I can do is just press play on this life that I have going for me and to be sure that I don't pause any of the things that should keep going.  I've pushed pause on this life, and nothing came out of it of edifying glory or praise of God.  However, when kept going, I felt much closer to God and He knew my every weakness and I overcame every obstacle much easier than I am now.

God knows my heart and my every weakness. He understands my life and where it shall go.  It's time to remember what is on my inner mind and forget the outside thought.  For God knows the plans He has for me. Ones to prosper me.  I am His. He is mine.  That's all that matters.

These Things I Will Do...

Life has never been more chaotic than it has been over this past semester. This soul has been through stress, chaos, heartbreak, and abundance of joys. This mind has ventured into the places many others would not venture, but also has remained so common to avoid confusion within other's lives around me. I have stood up to the challenges that were before me, overcame, and learned from each experience. Oh, how Williams teaches us more than we ever could realize.
All I can say is I'm grateful and thankful for every person that has ventured into my life since January. As my close friends would know, I was not in the best place and honestly my life still consumes places that need worked on, but in all thankfulness, a select few have stopped their busy schedules to come down and let me vent every part of my life, every facet, and every thought process. God has supplied my every need this semester and I'm thankful that I'm allowed the privilege to grow in Him, while growing in my friendship with others.

Thank God for all He is. Through the trials, the pain, the strife, He still prevails. There's no darkness, only light within the hearts of those who love Him first and foremost. Never lose sight. I lost my way, and He waited for me to find Him again.

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.

Isaiah 42:16

The Perfect Puzzle, The Perfect Painting

Sometimes, I sit back and listen to people try and understand the world. They try to make sense of the things around them and nothing seems to make sense anymore. Life just seems jumbled, what once made sense is completely irrelevant now, and the things of this world does not quite satisfy the way they wish it would. Sometimes it's like losing that last puzzle piece that could create the missing link, or the very last color you need to paint the perfect portrait. However, what we end up finding is finding that puzzle piece that doesn't match at all, or finding out that there isn't an adequate color to finish the portrait you're trying to complete because it's all too sophisticated.

I don't believe life is meant to make all complete sense. If it did, then what would the journey be like? It would be too easy, we would not understand the mistakes we make or the relationships we create with various people. This life would be, in a sense, too bleak and bland. I praise God for the trials, tribulations, and the things I've went through in my life. Although nothing makes sense to me at all, I have the peace to know that He holds what I cannot.

I don't believe I'm suppose to understand everything I've gotten into or even what kind of world this is. Nothing makes sense because my life isn't suppose to be cookie-cutted. I'm always being molded, always shaped, and always becoming closer and closer to whatever I'm intended to be. Whatever comes up in my life, that's what will happen. Whatever doesn't show up, that'll just be another barrier to push myself over or just to walk around altogether and keep trekking forward. Whatever seems complicated, do not try to make sense of it... just sit back and watch it unravel. Expectation is the root of all heart ache. We just have to hop in the car and go, fix the small things, and embrace the picture being painted that our colors do not seem to convey, or put in the puzzle piece that doesn't fit. Who says a mismatched piece in a puzzle isn't beautiful?


Ty

Stay Happy...

Thinking of.. Nothing.

As my thoughts progress and develop, all I can think about is... Nothing. Absolutely nothing. My mind is not functioning along with my heart, even though I know exactly the path I should head in. It's kind of hard  when it's not all up to myself. Life, come at me. I'm seriously not afraid of a single thing anymore. I know what I think, and I know what I believe. If for some reason anything goes against me, let it. There's so many more important things in this world than to worry about anything more than glorifying God regardless of any decisions that comes toward my way.

God, you know exactly where my heart, mind, and life is going. You know exactly what is in the forefront of my mind, and that is mostly you.. and completely You. We all have battles, we all have something that encompasses our lives, but You are sovereign. Thanks for bringing me to Williams and thanks for guiding my life in the way it should go. It's all up to me.. partly. Hello, this new week.

All I can say is, I've never been more "okay" in my life... yet I find peace.

All I ask.

Pick me a path, and somehow convince me to be okay with it. That's all I ask.

- Ty

Feelings in Poetic Form

This is my complete and honest feelings for the night. I hope you can look past my poetic failures, but there is a structure to it.

As my life moves, grows, and develops within my mind

I see a new day dawning coming over the horizon.

Where this road will take me, I'm not entirely sure

All I know is that my mind is searching for a cure

Battles and struggles leap and get in the way

But, I have a feeling your life creates me a new day.

I know I'm not running into anything new

I understand that not all of this can be true

All I can fathom is how life could be if you were all I knew

I understand my life has seen things come and go

It's not like I haven't undergone these things, I know

My entire self has seen the sins of this dark place

Many of these I'm thankful I have found solace

My mind may seem confusing, my heart may seem troubling

I know that I have many problems and I'm always stumbling

But thankfully, you see past all of my failures

Thankfully, you understand that I am all yours

Dear God, You blessed me, I'm all Yours.

Shape my heart

Shape my mind

Take care of my thoughts

You shape my future

Oh, how my life has finally began